A Surprising Association

IF I KEEP MYSELF MISERABLE
I AM MAKING MYSELF SOME KIND OF
USEFUL SACRIFICE

that particular idolatry of
shadows swirling round about


....I think that expression is pertinent to comprehending
the shadow identifications/idolatries of the
well-educated, devout, young male missionaries...
unconsciously serving the shadow of Spanish imperialism, no less,
in  California... devoted to Our Lady of the Via Dolorosa...
while punishing the indigenous peoples for their sins...

I've never gotten this before...